“Be still and Know that I AM GOD” That was my answer when I petitioned the Lord about a pretty important life decision that I felt needed to be made – now! I had been stressing, obsessing, fretting, worrying – trying to make sense of it all. Asking questions, reasoning it out and when I stopped striving long enough to actually hear the answer to my question – this is what God said.
In other words, “Laurie, stop stressing, obsessing, and trying to figure this out with your limited human mind.” I already know the end from the beginning, the direction that I would have you go, I know your purpose and how to get you there. I AM GOD! Let Me be God!”
I have been feeling like I was hanging between two ropes – one in one hand and another in the other hand pulling me opposite directions. Afraid to let go of either one but knowing it is necessary in order to get anywhere. I can’t continue to hang on to the past while reaching for the future. I can’t continue to hold on to my expectations and reach for God’s will. I can’t continue to live out yesterday’s purpose while pursuing today’s. I must let go!
but…I feel like I am hanging between the two with nothing under my feet, just suspended in the air. So God says, “Really, Laurie. Do you think I don’t have you in the palm of My hand? Just let go and let me place you where you need to be. Stop striving and working and let me handle this! I’ve Got This!”
Why is it that God has to keep reminding me that He’s got this? He doesn’t need my help. I don’t have to reason and put in my two cents worth. It’s really not even worth two cents! I am so limited in my thoughts, my ability to see, I am powerless, have no knowledge but what God gives me, No talents except what He’s placed in me, nothing to offer but…God Himself!
If God had a “Help Wanted” sign out, I would never qualify to answer it. My resume would say: Laurie Webb, human. Knowledge: none. Talents: none. Experience: compared to eternity? none. Ability to see: limited. Ability to hear: wavers. Follows direction: sometimes.
So why would I ever think I needed to help God out by deciding my future? Why would I ever think I could direct my path? Thankfully, God is gracious and merciful and despite my best efforts to “help Him out”, He still loves me and guides and directs me. He chooses my best path and allows me the freedom to follow it or not. He loves me and knows my purpose. He sent Holy Spirit to guide me in it. My part in this is to listen, look, follow, everyday! He gives me today’s step today and tomorrow’s step tomorrow.
My decision is to “Be still” and allow God to pave the way. It’s not my decision to make, anyway. Wow, what a peace came over me when I let go. I am no longer fretting over what to do. When asked recently what my decision was, I simply said, “I haven’t made one. It’s not mine to make!” I know that I know “that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” I also know that God said, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
So, the next time you think you want to help God out, remember this – God doesn’t need our help – He says “Be still and know that I am God”.